tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74394837117650159372011-07-08T08:33:06.996-04:00the dynamics of quantum entanglement made even more confusingpenijeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00507868075633650360noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7439483711765015937.post-61428115420916301172009-08-09T18:08:00.003-04:002011-01-14T02:55:37.478-05:00<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>"God whispers to us in our joy, speaks through our pleasure, and shouts through our pain. It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world." -- C. S. Lewis<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />easily came so hard today<br />i left the option on the dashboard as you drove away<br />and i watched myself fade into the distance<br />where i make my home now<br /><br />i wanted this to be harder for you<br />i wanted it to be easier for me<br />instead i silently hoped the streetcorner that swallowed you<br />would change it's mind<br /><br />there isn't enough bleach in the world to clean you out of my corners<br />but there's enough indifference in your smile to keep me scrubbing<br />and i blame the tear streaks on the sharp chemical snap of ammonia in the air<br /><br />i don't make promises to myself these days<br />like "never again"<br />or "i'll keep hoping"<br />or "this time it will be different"<br /><br />i ask God that He will shout loud enough to deafen the sound of your existence<br />i ask for the raw, vulnerable scraping awareness of my inconsequence to dull the optimism of my need<br />i ask for freedom from fear<br />so that i can love perfectly<br />in the face of instant replay disease<br /><br />His answer is hard for me to hear<br />but i pry open my fingers one at a time<br />painfully<br />desperately<br />and i let go of you<br />to cling to Him<br />burrowing closer<br />higher up and further in<br /><br />until i am surprised<br />by the realization that You are whispering in my ear<br />and that all those rainy mornings<br />playing hide and seek with joy<br />are over<br />because i have been found<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>this is a placeholder blog till i get bored here:</div><div>http://pleonast.com/users/fullofgrace</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7439483711765015937-6142811542091630117?l=thepenijeaneffect.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>penijeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00507868075633650360noreply@blogger.com1